this is a test. and practice.

this is a cow!

this is not a cow!

what da fuck?

agh. aaagh. i forgot what i wanted to post. i had a sense of purpose, like i was gonna post something important. but i forgot! shit. maybe it's the brain damage from all the liquor i imbibed last night. and thursday night too. i gots lotsa drunk this past week. shit. i'm hungover. i'm drinking ginseng cola and eating sushi. that's nice. it is helping me to feel better.
i still ain't sent instructor that ppr outline i was supposed to do by yesterday. i'm a horrible person. horribles.
i need to learn me some more of html language. then i could, like, have indentations and shit. fancy.
well...maybe i'll think of the super duper incredible thing i was gonna post after i go empty my bladder. we'll see. keep your eyes on this webpage folks!

hell is a breaking loose...

"walls start closing in around you my twins of evil they shake you by the collarbone then snap your ribcage and broken bodies in a death rock dance hall please be my partner eyeballs pop, accellerated blood beat veins `a' shaking and all hell breaks loose yea, evil is as evil does and who yea, who but me could write this book of cruel i send my murdergram to all these monster kids it comes right back to me and it's signed in there parents' blood and all hell breaks loose yea, my heart is a-breaking loose yea, my whole world's breaking loose yea, and evil is as does and who yea, but who but me could write this book of cruel i send my mudergram to all these monster kids it comes right back to me and it's signed in there parents blood and broken bodies in a death rock dance hall please be my partner and eyeballs pop, accellerated blood beat veins a-shaking and all hell breaks loose yea, my heart is a-breaking loose yea, my whole world's breaking loose yea, evil is as evil does and who yea, but who but me could write this book of cruel i said my whole world's breaking loose yea, my whole world's breaking loose yea, my whole world's breaking loose yea, my whole world's breaking all hell breaks loose"




"i hack the heads off little girls and put'em on my wall.
i want your skull!
i need your skull!"

gosh damn shit fuck dude.

yes, i am still fucking about on this bloody machine... just perusing past posts and realizing that, indeed, all i really do here is whine. and waste time. blah blah, got project/skoolwerk due, don't feel like doing it, rather be drinking, i have a headache, i'm hungry.
holy facking shite. i gots to find something else to do here. heh. another common thread... should be doing more productive things! doomed, i am. yeah.

boring bored boredom

la la la lightbulb. eh eh eh eh eskimos. i want buttery baked potatoes. i want whiskey. now. dammit.

i should be working on my
paper.

actually it's only at outline. that's it. i had a week to write up a shitty frickin' intro and outline for a paper naught due till the third damned week of march. and i didn't get it done. and i've been sitting in front of this gol'darned 'puter machine mucking about in photoshop, which is fun after all, and still ain't done the damned intro and outline. which was due at four p.m. That was about three hours ago, folks. should i quit skool yet?

bombing the fuck out of this semester. sort of. i mean it's still early, it can be saved. been drinking and carousing too much. spending money in unnecessarry ways and time also. wasting it shamelessly. okay, i'm ashamed, actually. giving myself hangovers that have made difficulties with class attendence. that ain't good, right? still, i can see i been having some fun. just gotta slow down and smell, erm, do the homework. yes.
my throat hurts. did i mention i have also been smoking far too many cigarettes far too often? need do quit soon. march will make me anyway-- smoking ban, and i do most of my hardcore smoking at da club, thusly this will force me to stop. b/c freezing outside for a cigarette is silly. yep.

okay. so i should stop fucking about on this here interweb and do do do my damn-ed damned skool shite. alrighty. later, kids.

who cares?

i don't know why i'm posting. i'm thinking i need dinner, and have to pee, and am thirsty, and have a headache... and i'm supposed to be making something for a class, which is due tomorrow and has barely been started. yay. so all the above and i feel angry and depressed and lonely too. not because it's valentine's day... just cuz i don't have a lot of friends and i'm pissed about the project i'm supposed to be doing. and that hungry thing. sigh. i should go now. i think i am going to get food at nearby cooperative grocery or hard times mayhaps, and then stop at bar thereabouts and try some liquid therapy... yeah... and that'll just make me wanna sleep and i'll get pissed more about all this and give up and go home. yawn. maybe post more later. still as ever pissed that i have little to no readership. but other peeps got cooler shit to say then i... i'm just whining all the damn time.

headachehaveitoo,andothermyriadproblems...

morning. i'm tired. i ain't gone to bed yet since yesterday afternoon. see, i slept most of yesterday. weren't feeling so good. don't feel too great now. that's because i been up all night though. and i could use me some delicious breakfast of some kind or other. i should soon go home from this computer lab where i have been sitting for far too long, surfing and downloading music from emusic. i am too tired to make link.
i have issues i have to try and concern myself harder with thinking regarding... like homework and getting to my classes- preferably on-time as well as of course actually making it there at all. sleeping during yesterday, missed three classes! this is not so good. and i have papers to think about, and interactive art prjkt that needs creating-prototype due tuesday, and lotsa reading i am not caught up with, and finding collaboration prtnr for nxt collaboration in my interdisciplinary collaborations class. this will be hard. i am not good at such a thing as approaching ppl to do this, and also do not know who i want to work with. first collaboration assigned partners by random, went well. was happy with what we made, which was a video involving a cellphone, paint, fire, and a hatchet. it was hella cool, dude. yup.
so yeah. i need to homeward head, yes. to sleepward head, yup. that's the plan. mayhap... or i might just stay up. but either way first thing i need to do before doing other things is go home and hop into my shower and scrub myself well with good smelling soap. then i shall decide how i would like to proceed with the rest of my friday. tomorrow is saturday. tomorrow i am going to First Avenue to see the band Low. they are from duluth and i am too... sort of. actually, i am from superior, wi which is just a coupla minutes over lake superior from duluth, mn. good enough. i was at, i think, their very first show. still have flyer someplace, i think. cool.
i have to go now. thank you for your time. have pleasant day and following weekend and life in general. talk to you again soon, hope. be well.

too busy for internet.... argh

the fun will begin again here soon, i promise... just got to get into the swing of things with this new semester and all. benefit for Mom over the weekend went great, she got some moneys which will help greatly as her disability benefits run out in a couple of weeks.
i have been mysteriously depressed for a few days or so... well it's not too much of a mystery- i gots a lot of stuff i need to take care of that i have been dropping the ball on, i'm lonely, there's a guy i really have a serious crush on who is not interested in me, and there's a history of cancer in my family. argh. not to mention i'm thousands of dollars in debt, have bad cavities, and even if i manage to graduate from my college my gpa's shite and it's not likely i am studying stuff that will get me a job. sigh. oh, and i have heartburn right now. and a headache. to be honest, i'm a little hung-over. and i have class in five minutes so i have to go now. thanx for listening... erm... reading, yeah.