making time for dentistry

My tooth is finally going to pieces! this it not good. I have had a cracked front tooth for a little over a year now, been meaning to get it taken care of... had bad luck with a couple of dentists, didn't have dental insurance,... have had dental insurance for at least 6 months now but just been too busy. Now I have to take care of it a.s.a.p. cuz part of it just finally fell out. and the rest will follow any damned minute to be sure. lovely. I have to work tomorrow from 8-1:00 on a shoot, I will be behind a video camera. I have barely eaten because I am nervous about tooth. I have not slept because of the whole worried about not making it to work on time so staying on campus instead thing I've been doing worknights. That and fear that if I slept I'd roll around and the very very ready to detach bit of tooth that's left would get knocked out. Well than I'd still have some tooth, just a little stub in my gum with the rest all busted off. Yay. Probably better, right now it's a big portion of the front/veneer that's come off. I don't know how the bit that's still there is staying on. Shouldn't jinx it.

I have super bad teeth also, so hopefully after I get this fixed I will find some goddamn time to get 'em all cleaned and get my terrible cavities patched up.

Birthday in 2 days. Send $$.

the sun was born, and it shall die...

Further
by Vnv Nation
album: Burning Empires (EP) (2000)

At the end of days
At the end of time
When the sun burns out will any of this matter?
Who will be there to remember who we were?
Who will be there to know that any of this had meaning for us?

And in retrospect I'll say we've done no wrong
Who are we to judge what's right and what has purpose for us?
With designs upon ourselves to do no wrong,
Running wild unaware of what might come of us

The sun was born and so it shall die
So only shadows comfort me
I know in darkness I will find you giving up inside like me
Each day shall end as it begins
And though you're far away from me
I know in darkness I will find you giving up inside like me

Without a thought I will see everything eternal
Forget that once we were just dust from heavens far
As we were forged to shall return, perhaps some day
I will remember us and wonder who we were

The sun was born and so it shall die
So only shadows comfort me
I know in darkness I will find you giving up inside like me
Each day shall end as it begins
And though you're far away from me
I know in darkness I will find you giving up inside like me

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i feel like something's breaking, again, today, and i have no idea why.

i don't think the whole "fuck-buddy" thing made reference to in previous posts is working, even though it's working fine. i think i just need something different from what i'm getting out of this... but i have no outlet for what i think i may need, and this seems to be the closest i can get... i guess.

argh.

*yawn*yawn*yawn*yawn*yawn*

man, and i thought i was tired those other days! wooh. i have not had the sleep since sunday early afternoon when i slept till 1 p.m. cuz i knew i'd be up all night sunday night. but monday night, predict did i not. nay. i have had ever so many of the skool work assignments and needed to complete and some of them are rather overdue. i developed photographs yesterday and also had on friday night though was also tired and sleepless than. not as much as now though. By the by, there are 2 pix i took at the last DwI taping over in my myspace pictures section... that would be my Random acct. I also now have a musics myspace as Yertl B. McNugget. where I am sticking my maniacal little sound collage like thingeys I have made for electronic music assignments up. Just one there so far, myspace is being wonky so I ain't been able to upload the one that I have been up for the last 2 nights working on. It might happen someday that other things will go up there also or something. yep. very very exciting!




did i mention i am tired? i have a need to catch a bus to my bed and blankeys!