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 something I have noticed, and of course I have somewhat noticed this before but not quite in the same way... I mean, I guess now I am seeing it as a trait I seem to have that I need to find a way to change. I seem to be more likely to mourn the passing of good times than to be happy that I have had them. I am listening to Sonic Youth and thinking of times spent sitting up all nite drinking and listening to Sonic Youth and other stuff but lots of Sonic Youth in preparation of them coming here in the first week of Sept which has happened already now... anyway we had a lot of fun, and now my friend is reluctant to sit up all nite drinking w/ me for some reason... And the Sonic Youth concert happened so we don't have that impetus for him to introduce to all his favorite Sonic Youth. Am I happy that he and I shared some awesome times? Well of course I am somewhat, but more I find myself feeling really sad that it looks like we don't be doing stuff like that again. Hmm...

 And I miss Mom like hell. If I could find a way to focus on good times we've had together and be glad to have those memories...

  I'm hungry. Sonic Youth is awesome, but unfortunately the show wasn't quite as awesome as hoped though that was possibly b/c of their playing a sort set consisting of mostly new stuff we didn't know that well.

 The Flaming Lips also played, they were the headliner, they were beyond awesome. As ever, the song Do You Realize... made me cry, even while I sang along. I've had that song come into my head so many times...

 " Do you realize that you have the most beautiful face
   Do you realize we're all floating in space
   Do you realize happiness makes you cry
   Do you realize
     that everyone you know someday will die?

  But instead of saying all your goodbyes
 let them know you realize that life goes fast
 it's hard to make the good things last
 
 Realize the sun doesn't go down
  it's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round"

 May contain minor errors I've pretty much memorized it from listening but have only glanced at a lyrics sheet once...