Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
You're my wonderwall
You're my wonderwall

-- -- -- -- - -

a mish mash of confusing miscellany in a world of maybes now lost and gone.
looking for revelations
or maybe salvation
or maybe just a shoulder
to lay my lonely head upon
lost and
losing
a world of maybes
now lost and gone
a mish-mash
of confusing miscellany
i can't explain
i only know it's gone
and i don't really know
what to do now

a bullet in my brain
is nonesense
only to make others see
that something else should have been?
to air my frustration somehow
make someone sad
make them regret

utter foolishness

:)

but i really don't know what do with myself sometimes

more people to forget about i guess

:/

more crossed off the list of friends.

:/

dread weary emoticons.

bleh.

all i know how to say anymore.

bleh. meh. blargh. argh. :/

but do i have any real desire to die?

or is it just spite?

and do i have any real desire to say "piss off"
and just cut ties myself with people who once strove to be my friend
or maybe even my lover
or something in between
people who strove to let me know I was worth something to them
worth their time and effort
and then decided that I'm really not?
what of it?
their loss?
:/
meh
blargh.
argh.
ergh.
blergh.
:/